#39

Chili's Southwestern Grilled Lamb @ MidValley, 2012 

1st attempt and a great memory. I smile a lil' everytime the word lamb pops up. :) *inside joke 

"I go through phases. Somedays I feel like the person I'm supposed to be, and then somedays, I turn into no one at all. There is both me and my silhouette. I hope that on the days you find me and all I am are darkened lines, you are still willing to stay near me."

My heart is slowly dying inside. 

and here comes the distance again. Too attached. :/

#34

“We are dying from over-thinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. It’s a death trap.”

This is what happened to me. Every single day. T_T

#33

Taken @Pacific Coffee Company 

• Lovin and always looking forward to Saturday the most despite only having this time to spend time with the dearest after a whole week of work. Bliss :)
• I like how we always do our things quietly. Feeling so motivated and comfortable knowing that everything will be fine.
• Asking so many questions today just for the sake of clearing my insecurity. :)

"Your mind is working at its best when you're being paranoid. You explore every avenue and possibility of your situation at high speed with total clarity."

#30

Taken @Sg, Dec 2010. How much I've been missing this city. I need an escapade there soon. 

"Live all you can: it's a mistake not to. It doesn't matter what you do in particular, so long as you had your life. If you haven't had that, what have you had?"

- Daily Writing #6 -

• Slept at 2am yesterday night because I just couldn't fall asleep. Woke up in the middle of the night, this has been happening for a month now. Every night. :( Am freaking sleepy now and the office hour has just started. D:
• Went out at the same time today as yesterday but took a much longer time to reach the office.
• The sun was already glaring at my sight even though I have yet to reach halfway of the journey. It rises so early today. 
• Urgh, super duper mad at cars that don't know how to put on their signal when changing lanes. Is that so difficult to put on the signal. D:
• Every morning, i made my own milo and then when I finish my milo. I would get some coffee since the tealady made it for us. :D
• Had a sudden obsession with Pandas. They are so cute, soft and huge! Am thinking of getting Pandas plushie now and put my teddy into the closet. Ahahaah! They just eat and eat, don't move also cute enough already! Awww. :D
• The colleague gave me so many new red packets. and she asked me to pass it to my mum -___- 
• Went shopping a lil' for shoes after work. Didn't see the ones that I like. Took like exactly an hour to reach home with dinner ready on the table. Bliss. :)

#27

Taken @midvalley: Pre-Cny 2013

"If there's one thing I've learned, it's this: We all want everything to be okay. We don't even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough." 

Absence makes the heart grow fonder? 250km. Again. :/

#25

-Daily Writing #5-

• Slept kinda late last night coz I had problem sleeping nowadays and almost got up late because I couldn't hear my alarm. Zzz. It happens all the time. and now am regret, coz the office hour has just started and am sleepy already. The tea lady has yet to make coffee, and am too lazy to make it on my own. Couldn't stand myself. Haha! 
• Sucha rainy Friday morning. I think it has been raining for like more than 12 hours -__-. I guess many people is on leave today that the traffic was not that bad even with the rain. :) 
• Had my teddy biscuits for breakfast. Oh you know, that biscuit in the teddy shape. Extremely adorable, feeling extremely happy eating them. Nomss! I still want my coffee :( 
• Lunch was 2 hrs today. and guess wad. Nasi lemak again. T_T See, told ya. Working life is all about nasi lemak. Meh meh meh! Why not pan mee?
• It looks like it's gonna rain again. Please don't rain T_T
• Raining like crap, and the traffic was so bad that I u-turn back to office. :(
• Went for dinner alone and I ate so fast because so many people texting me pestering me to eat faster and go home -___-
• Managed to get home in an hour + time. Feeling relieved that I didn't went home just now, if not I would've taken more than 2 hours. 
• Finally, sitting on the comfy couch with my laptop. 
• The leg is soooo tiring after wearing heels whole day and having to drive so long on the road. 
• It's the weekend tomorrow. So happy! :D

#22

-Morning Write #1-

• Having difficulties falling asleep last night, and it lasted for like an hour. Woke up later today and went out at the same time as ystd. But reached office a lil' later than ystd. This sounds damn cheong hei. Nvm lar. I just wanna write whatever that I feel like writing.
• Oh, reaching the office before the sun rises. Overlooking the view outside the window. The ldp, the neigbourhood, the buildings. Spectacular view. It would be awesome if there's ocean view. Ahaha think too much I know. No sign of sun yet, maybe it's mendung today.
• Went to the myNews shop to get 2 packets of nasi lemak, 1 for Anh. and the guy in the shop thought I were to eat 2 packets of nasi lemak when he asked if I need two spoons -___-. Like duhh, of course 2 spoons larrr. 
• Listening to the Krappi Call on Flyfm website and had a good laugh. Errp, I think my colleagues probably think I ki siao. again. -___-
• Had nasi lemak breakkie with Anh.
• Still don't see the sun yet. That's weird. 

End of the early morning writing. 

#21

-Daily Writing #4-

• Woke up extremely early today just to get out of the house earlier to avoid the jam. Monday's traffic is beyond terrible. In the end, I took a longer time in the bathroom. But still managed to go out like 5 mins earlier than usual. -___- I know. Reached the car park a lil' early like the barrier of the car park has just open in time. 
• Driving to work today with so many negative thoughts running on mind, stereo is on with the emo songs and the traffic is crawling. :(
• Nescafe + biscuit for breakfast and some daily reads on the net. 
• Rushing the work that I've been doing like since I started work. There's like more than 30 excel sheets and hundreds of millions of data -___-. Amended all again last week because am supposed to add in Dec figures. Yay, so happy I am done with it. But I think I would need to amend. D:
• Ohh, there's some colleagues belanja-ing food again today. They were discussing how to differentiate different types of duku langsat or whatsoever fruits alike larr. I am confused also. Nvm that, can eat will do. 
• Went out for lunch with Anh @1233pm and we waited for the lift for 3 times. First time seeing so many staff going out for lunch at this early. Usually it's just me & anh going out @1230 sharp. 
• There's actually no need to go for lunch today, as there's some colleagues belanja packets of nasi lemak. But me & anh were like craving for mcd. Oh lemme tell you about nasi lemak, it sounds like working life is all about nasi lemak. Breakfast you could have the small packet, you know those with few bites only type of nasi lemak. Lunch you could have the medium size packet from everywhere in 1u. Then at night, you could have the fancy type of nasi lemak like those in pappa rich or wad. I could eat 3 meals of nasi lemak here. -___- So boring. 
• Realizing that fast food ain't a favourite to working people here. The fast food shops here are like twice or thrice smaller than the ones in pyramid. You can imagine how small it is and you can always get a place here easily. Unlike those in pyramid, it's so huge but there's so many people that sometimes you can barely find places to seat especially during peak hours. 
• Done with work and I went to search for coffee again in the pantry. Asked the tea lady which is coffee powder, which is milo powder. I think she is laughing at me, or maybe thinking this girl so stoopid don't know how to differentiate between milo or coffee. Aduii, the two looks the same to me. So she told me her making drinks schedule. and the best thing is she will make milo, teh tarik and coffee for like 3 times a day. :DDD 
• I have to stop eating mentos. I can eat like 3-5 in the morning just because am hungry and like 3 after lunch time just because I want to bite something. My gigi will hilang if I continually eating mentos more than drinking water. This is scary, I ain't lao ah ma yet. D: Whatmore I just stock up my mentos. 
• What's weird about today is that the stereo didn't put the Terima Kasih Malaysia song today. I think. Or maybe it's just me that didn't hear it. 
• There's always 3 mobile's ringtones that will always beep everyday. and their tones are like latest hitz songs. Aduii, can they not put it to the loudest. -___- So annoying listening to the same ringtones everyday. Or perhaps they could try changing their ringtones everyday if they know it's gonna ring every single day. So that I wouldn't get bored listening to their ringtones. Like "errr this fella's mobile again". D:
• Left office and I thought of getting something from popular, in the end I splurge on a Richard Clayderman CD. Didn't even went to check out the thing that I want. D:
• Today's Flyfm's crappy call is probably the best I've ever heard. Really made my day. Laugh so hard in the car, people probably thought this girl ki siao. -___- Ohhh I would like to hear it over and over again. Dung Krappi Dung Dung Motor Works! Omg! I hope they have a podcast. 
• Instant noodle for dinner again. Oh am grateful it's raining now. If it rains after work, I guess I would have only reach home now. 

Time to be strong and face my fears. 

#20

In reality, happiness slips off easily. Everything is not as nice as it seems. T_T

"I felt that I breathed an atmosphere of sorrow" 

#19

-Daily Writing #3-

• Woke up extremely early today and had a pretty productive morning. :)
• Pan mee for lunchie. Ahhh my fav food. I can have pan mee everyday. Can I? But seeing that it's made of flour, and if I were to eat that everyday, I can assure that you will see obese xuannie very soon. But it's the only food that can excite me and make me happy. So today we went to this other pan mee shop, not Jojo and not noodle house that I always visit. This pan mee shop which has a pretty interesting name, Ha Ha Xiu. 
• Craving for some raw salmon right now. Yummeh! 
• Spend some time at Pacific Coffee Company with the dearest after one week. Coffee, hot chocolate, laptop and notes. Doing our own stuff, but it's the companion that matters. 
• Went for a walk at the playground in the evening after like 2 months? 
• There were like sooooo many cute lil' kids. Like freaking many of them. Extremely adorable when they walked imbalance in their cute lil' crocs. Awww, am starting to like kids. I think? Good sign huh. 
• While the maids accompany the lil' kids around the playground, there's another scene of old people gathering around chit-chatting.
• Ohh and also in the another corner, there's some ... i mean there's a lot of primary school kids playing football. 
• Wondering where's all the teenagers and young adults. -__- Probably at home staring at the screens. 
• Seeing parents playing badminton with their kids, I would definitely do that too in the future. Just because am craving to play badminton. Haha!
• Went dinner eating fish head noodles. Errp, if I have the choice, I would not eat fish head noodles. Can they not put ginger in it. Like so many of them? I have to pick them out one by one. T_T
• Realize I have not been bringing my camera out these days. Should start picking up that habit again and capture everything. Picture turns into great memories. :) Be it just a bowl of pan mee or a cup of coffee. <3

Today's quote would be this: 

"I often hear people say that they read to escape reality, but I believe that what they’re really doing is reading to find reason for hope, to find strength. While a bad book leaves readers with a sense of hopelessness and despair, a good novel, through stories of values realized, of wrongs righted, can bring to readers a connection to the wonder of life. A good novel shows how life can and ought to be lived. It not only entertains but energizes and uplifts readers."

#18

-Daily Writing #2-

• Friday's traffic indeed different from Monday & Tuesday. Took like less than an hour to reach office. :)
• Kak Ina made kuih kasui & kuih cara. So yummy, it's my first time hearing these kuih thou. and the food is always put beside my table. So everyone literally will come over to eat. -___- Everytime.
• 2 hours lunchie time today. Thought wanna go to Kluang station initially because am craving for nasi lemak, but we got lost in 1u -__-. So we had lunch @penang flavours at last. Ohh had my nasi lemak craving fixed. 
• Didn't wanna be a light bulb, so awkward. So I went walking around for awhile after lunchie since we had like an hour to go. 
• The way from new wing to old wing in 1u is really dreadful. So freaking far. D: 
• The stereo in the office is on 24/7 -__-. Freaking sleepy hearing those songs. 
• Went to check out the traffic @ldp outside the window with Anh @5pm, the jam has already started. :(
• Anh was pestering me to pack at 530pm sharp, but I told her am so reluctant to go home after seeing the traffic from the window. 
• Talked a lil' to the desk neighbour, Lina before leaving office. She's sucha sweet & quiet girl. 
• Took 2 hours to get home, so freaking bored on the road. I did stretching, I sent text, I move around, I ate biscuit. -.-
• Discovered a new restaurant with mumsie and had some chinese food for dinner. Am so gonna put on weight if I continuously having outside food for 2 meals everyday. :(

Came across this and I find this so true:

"The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too".

Weekends is here but it's gonna be Monday blue soon. 

#17

- Daily Writing -

• Woke up from sleep so many times that it's a daily routine now. 
• Went out from the house 5 mins later than usual and the traffic was so much different. The traffic is forever crawling in the morning. 
• Reached office and greeted Lina morning - my desk neighbor. 
• There's no hot milo + packet biscuit for me today. I had warm plain water + egg tart. 
• Looking out at the view outside the building. It was magnificent, seeing the sun rises and getting brighter. Gotta remind myself to walk towards the window tomorrow morning and check out the view. 
• Abang Man came to work and the first thing he does everyday would be switching on the stereo, and that same song over and over again everyday. Freaking many times, that the colleagues would sing along -___-. That Terima Kasih Malaysia song. -___- again. 
• Decided to walk on the road to the mall instead of taking lifts twice to get there for lunch.
• Jusco food court again for lunch and our favorite dry pan mee. It doesn't taste as good as those outside, but still the best among other stalls inside the food court. The chicken rice soup that I had yesterday at the same place had yellow oil floating on the surface. D: 
• Bought jellybeans back to office as snack. 
• Having terrible stomach cramps and couldn't work. So I took a rest, move around and scribble on my financial statements paper -__-. and I guess the paper turned into a zoo full of weird animals. 
• Drank tonnes of warm water today. It feels so yummy. 
• Went shopping for fruits again with Anh after work. The girl wants to buy some fruits over to her bf's hse. Ended up getting nothing thou.
• So reluctant to leave the mall because I didn't want to drive through the jam for 2 hrs with stomach cramps. :( But i've no choice and I made it. -__- Today's traffic is not that bad, I took an hour half to get home. 
• Sang along My Love - Westlife and press the repeat button for so many times. 
• Listen to the phat fabes & ben crappy call and managed to laugh a lil'. 
• Everyday I listen to the same song on the stereo over & over again. So many same song in a day. Can they change the songs, please? T_T
• Came home to hearing the neighbour yelling at the dogs "boy, girl". Just like how I always called out my babyleo "boy". Nah, I don't call, I yell. lol.

Tomorrow. and tomorrow. Shall be the same routine. 

and something that I realize: 

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need." 

Just yesterday, I got so tired and hated myself for being upset for the same old reason again. Sigh. 

Page 358 #3: Sunday

Slept at 3am and woke up pretty early at 830am with an awful backache. T_T Am still having backache right now. and this actually happens once in awhile. Mumsie said I need to exercise, and I happily told her alright am going cycling later. Then I asked mumsie whuai did not she asked me where am I going for cycling -___-, and she answered "upstairs lar duhh". Mehh, not fun at all. She then made fruit juice for me. Today ze mumsie treated me extremely good for putting bitter gourd in my fruit juice, and then celery in the spaghetti. Errrp, I dislike two of those. the most. D: It's a lazy Sunday, I laze around on the couch and in my room. The only productive thing I did was to arrange my clothes tidying up my wardrobe. But I know very well it would be messy again tomorrow. Sucha hopeless girl. hahaha! Ah man, tomorrow is Monday. again. T_T I needa go out before the sun rises. Pretty challenging tomorrow. Please tell me I can survive tomorrow. D: 

Got this lil' surprise pressie a couple of months back. Haven't get to blog about this pretty lil' thing. Awww, I've always like bracelet and also especially bracelet like this that has a heart shape charm in the middle. I always love it this way and it's so simple like that. Been wearing it so often that I think maybe I should stop wearing it frequently already, for I scare I've been scratching it like mad. Lovin it loads, something so precious. ♥

Page 358 still: Musical Show

Got to watch the musical show that I have been wanting to watch so long ago. Like a month ago, I was telling the friends how much I wanted to watch this musical, but having finals and started interning, there's not much time left. Aww, today I had a lil' surprise having the opportunity to watch it before it ending soon on the 31st Dec I guess. Lovin surprises! It excites you the moment you got it and you realize how much people actually listened to you and know so well what you want. Best feeling ever. 

Surprisingly there's so many people for yesterday night's show since it has been repeating every night for almost a month already. The first part of the musical was pretty lengthy, and the second part I thought it was too cut short. But it's always nice watching musical shows for I love their voice so much, sounds so disney-alike and also the atmosphere where people screaming and clapping their hands and also feeling all excited about the musical. Positive vibes all around. 

Having to start working, I realize how precious is weekends. There ain't time at all for us during weekdays, I guess not much conversation also for after work our energy are so drain out already and having to sleep early since we need to wake up early to work. Sigh, such is working life. Friday is the best day where I could finally understand tgif. And having to spent the whole Saturday with the best companion ever was the best feeling ever. Awww love the moments most. 

It's 238am, and I am so reluctant to sleep. It's Saturday night that I usually sleep very much later enjoying the time alone. The air-cond, my comfy bed, music and laptop. Awesomest. and Sunday night? Double triple meh! Ahhh Monday. It's really blue nowadays. 

Till then. Imma continue scrolling. :D 

The Starting of December

It's the time of the semester again. Le sigh. :/

I need more good lucks wishes.

Till then. x

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#1 Been spending loads of time with mumsie love. Doing shopping most of the time. Mummy said if only everyday is like holiday. We spend time going shopping, having tea time everyday and take our own sweet time in the malls. 

#2 Went down to Malacca for a short vacation with the aunts. Spending most of the time on the road, thanks to the traffic. The traffic in Malacca town was horrendous. So scary that I am so not going there again during public holidays. But look @ these cutie chicken rice balls, aren't they adorable?! Awww. 

#3 Ahhh, durian puff. I miss you already. So nais to hold, so yummeh to eat. *drools. 

#4 Went pyramid yesterday with mumsie love, and dragged mum to Esquire Kitchen to get my Xiao Long Bao craving fixed. Been craving for a month already. Ahh I want more. 

#5 The typical chinese food, Yong Chow Fried Rice. All time favourite, anytime anywhere. (Y)

#6 Cooked spaghetti for brunch. After I done eating only I realized I forgotten to put mushroom. and the carrot was pretty hard. D: haha! 

#7  That's my favourite ring! Visit here if you want to get more accessories.

This week was a roller-coaster week. I am grateful having the family and friends to support me and helped me to walk through those tough days that I had. Appreciate much and each and everyone of you have a special place in my heart. Infinity Love. Indeed. 

Page 168

Thanks bro for this souvenir all the way from US. x 

“Life is a question of nerves, and fibres, and slowly built-up cells in which thought hides itself and passion has its dreams. You may fancy yourself safe and think yourself strong. But a chance tone of color in a room or a morning sky, a particular perfume that you had once loved and that brings subtle memories with it, a line from a forgotten poem that you had come across again, a cadence from a piece of music that you had ceased to play. I tell you, that it is on things like these that our lives depend.”

Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

The Thursday night

Oh hai, that's me with my best friend in the whole universe - Teddy. Oh excuse the sucky photo quality, my laptop's webcam kinda sucks. Sad case. Just a random update, I am currently on a study break. Kinda like a study break already since there's only 1 class left. Some people, I mean the buddy tries to make me feels guilty every time he talks to me as if I am supposed to study instead of hanging around on the internet world. Oh well, I know how to manage my time, meh x1000! This sem has been really interesting especially with my fav lecturer teaching the subject! 3 days of class a week, sigh i wish time don't flies. It too soon to bid this short sem goodbye. Assignment for this sem was pretty interesting, creating a magazine of ourselves from scratch! So much to learn, but I think I learn photoshop skills pretty much. Of course, the basic ones, but still it's more than enough. Heh! Alright, I shall update more, exam comes 1st. 

My current fav song. Bon Iver's I can't make you love me. 

That's all for now. (: 

Me and My Morning w/o COFFEE!

It's 952am right now, am sitting on the bench outside the Financial Services Department in the uni. Despite cafeteria and yellow bench are always crowded, I found this new love place with large tables and not so comfy benches but still fine to me. Reached uni @ 830 today after going through a massive jam for an hour. I just don't understand why is KL foreverjam when the roads are endless. Can anyone tell me why? It has been raining since I-don't-know-what-time making the road wet and causing the terrible jam. Had been reluctant to wake up that I snooze my alarm clock for 15 minutes because the weather is too good to leave the bed. Moreover, sleeping only at 2am and having to wake up at 6am is meh! 

Am taking a break from assignment. Yawning marathon has not stop you see. Am sitting right at the corner with the lappy on, charger plugged just like a #totalantisocial. Had been brainstorming since just now that I think it used up pretty much of my energy. It's always at this time my stomach decides to growl. I guess I am always hungry. So yeah, besides doing my assignment, I am also observing the people around me. 

Them. and their Study Habits. 

1. There's this girl sitting at the table in front of me had been really hardworking. She was here before me and she's wearing this black frame glass. Sit up straight and studying really hard. So serious that I don't think she moves at all while studying. Only once in awhile, she uses the stylus pen to click on her mobile. 

2. Then there's another girl sitting behind the table where the no.1 girl is sitting. She had her notes open up on the table. But nah, she has been clicking on her mobile typing away all the time. Talks on the phone once in a while. 

3. Here's another girl that just came and sit down. She had her laptop and books on the table. Typing away on her Blackberry and clicking on her ipod. Wooots all the techgadgets. 

4. 2 tables away from me there's this guy who was still reading his notes a moment ago, but yeah he's sleeping now. 

Alright, my #bff is here. Enough of observing spree. I am still hungry. Forever fact! 

Pavilion

Went to Pavilion the day after we came back from S'pore because I was complaining I haven't see the Christmas decoration @ Pavilion. So we went there by monorail. Pavilion was surrounded by 147 United Buddy Bears. So attracting!

#1 Clothes we got from H&M. 

#2 The outfit. 

#3 Wan-tan mee for lunch! Yummeh! 

#4 The oh-so-famous Pavilion. 

#5 The united buddy bears promote living together in peace and harmony, so yeah that's me with my Asian pose : PEACE. 

#6 More united bears! 

#7 and more. 

#8 The Statue of Liberty United Bear. 

#9 The must-take picture. 

#10 Random shot.