#18

-Daily Writing #2-

• Friday's traffic indeed different from Monday & Tuesday. Took like less than an hour to reach office. :)
• Kak Ina made kuih kasui & kuih cara. So yummy, it's my first time hearing these kuih thou. and the food is always put beside my table. So everyone literally will come over to eat. -___- Everytime.
• 2 hours lunchie time today. Thought wanna go to Kluang station initially because am craving for nasi lemak, but we got lost in 1u -__-. So we had lunch @penang flavours at last. Ohh had my nasi lemak craving fixed. 
• Didn't wanna be a light bulb, so awkward. So I went walking around for awhile after lunchie since we had like an hour to go. 
• The way from new wing to old wing in 1u is really dreadful. So freaking far. D: 
• The stereo in the office is on 24/7 -__-. Freaking sleepy hearing those songs. 
• Went to check out the traffic @ldp outside the window with Anh @5pm, the jam has already started. :(
• Anh was pestering me to pack at 530pm sharp, but I told her am so reluctant to go home after seeing the traffic from the window. 
• Talked a lil' to the desk neighbour, Lina before leaving office. She's sucha sweet & quiet girl. 
• Took 2 hours to get home, so freaking bored on the road. I did stretching, I sent text, I move around, I ate biscuit. -.-
• Discovered a new restaurant with mumsie and had some chinese food for dinner. Am so gonna put on weight if I continuously having outside food for 2 meals everyday. :(

Came across this and I find this so true:

"The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too".

Weekends is here but it's gonna be Monday blue soon. 

#17

- Daily Writing -

• Woke up from sleep so many times that it's a daily routine now. 
• Went out from the house 5 mins later than usual and the traffic was so much different. The traffic is forever crawling in the morning. 
• Reached office and greeted Lina morning - my desk neighbor. 
• There's no hot milo + packet biscuit for me today. I had warm plain water + egg tart. 
• Looking out at the view outside the building. It was magnificent, seeing the sun rises and getting brighter. Gotta remind myself to walk towards the window tomorrow morning and check out the view. 
• Abang Man came to work and the first thing he does everyday would be switching on the stereo, and that same song over and over again everyday. Freaking many times, that the colleagues would sing along -___-. That Terima Kasih Malaysia song. -___- again. 
• Decided to walk on the road to the mall instead of taking lifts twice to get there for lunch.
• Jusco food court again for lunch and our favorite dry pan mee. It doesn't taste as good as those outside, but still the best among other stalls inside the food court. The chicken rice soup that I had yesterday at the same place had yellow oil floating on the surface. D: 
• Bought jellybeans back to office as snack. 
• Having terrible stomach cramps and couldn't work. So I took a rest, move around and scribble on my financial statements paper -__-. and I guess the paper turned into a zoo full of weird animals. 
• Drank tonnes of warm water today. It feels so yummy. 
• Went shopping for fruits again with Anh after work. The girl wants to buy some fruits over to her bf's hse. Ended up getting nothing thou.
• So reluctant to leave the mall because I didn't want to drive through the jam for 2 hrs with stomach cramps. :( But i've no choice and I made it. -__- Today's traffic is not that bad, I took an hour half to get home. 
• Sang along My Love - Westlife and press the repeat button for so many times. 
• Listen to the phat fabes & ben crappy call and managed to laugh a lil'. 
• Everyday I listen to the same song on the stereo over & over again. So many same song in a day. Can they change the songs, please? T_T
• Came home to hearing the neighbour yelling at the dogs "boy, girl". Just like how I always called out my babyleo "boy". Nah, I don't call, I yell. lol.

Tomorrow. and tomorrow. Shall be the same routine. 

and something that I realize: 

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need." 

Just yesterday, I got so tired and hated myself for being upset for the same old reason again. Sigh. 

2013: #16

- The 16th day of 2013: The first post of the year -

I remember every year, I've the same resolution, to be stronger as the year goes on. But today, I feel as weak as usual. I've not grow a lil' stronger at all. Last year was a rough and tough year, it was filled with emotionally draining and that anxiety has managed to take a toll on me. Most of the days I find myself having extreme emotion, I could be so happy just because of the littlest thing but I could also be so upset about the littlest thing ever. How silly I could be. What is wrong with me? People always said that what happened in the past shaped the way you are. After going through the roller coaster years, it seems like am still the same weak girl that couldn't learn how to control her emotions. Most of the time, it would be celebratory-year-end. But, last year, I find myself drowning in anxiety and blankness.  

On the bright side, am grateful that last year was the year I gain friends that truly care about me. Friends that gave me encouragement whenever I am upset. Friends that never leave me no matter how pessimist I am. Friends that never gave up on me no matter how hard I tried to push them away. Friends that know me so well and every details that what I want. I feel very much loved, and very thankful having them. I can have awesomest friends that help me through my ups and downs and for they are always there whenever I need them. I guess am the happiest when I feel so much being loved. :')

2013. The year didn't start off well. As much as I hope it do. :( This year is gonna be a turning point for me, where I hope everything would be well. When people always asked "2013, please treat me well". I need to remind myself of my goals and yes please, I will make 2013 a better year for me. Hopefully? Too much doubts.

“We all can use a little hope sometimes, you know. That feeling that everything is gonna be okay and that there’s gonna be someone there to help make sure of that.”

—	One Tree Hill

Page 358 #3: Sunday

Slept at 3am and woke up pretty early at 830am with an awful backache. T_T Am still having backache right now. and this actually happens once in awhile. Mumsie said I need to exercise, and I happily told her alright am going cycling later. Then I asked mumsie whuai did not she asked me where am I going for cycling -___-, and she answered "upstairs lar duhh". Mehh, not fun at all. She then made fruit juice for me. Today ze mumsie treated me extremely good for putting bitter gourd in my fruit juice, and then celery in the spaghetti. Errrp, I dislike two of those. the most. D: It's a lazy Sunday, I laze around on the couch and in my room. The only productive thing I did was to arrange my clothes tidying up my wardrobe. But I know very well it would be messy again tomorrow. Sucha hopeless girl. hahaha! Ah man, tomorrow is Monday. again. T_T I needa go out before the sun rises. Pretty challenging tomorrow. Please tell me I can survive tomorrow. D: 

Got this lil' surprise pressie a couple of months back. Haven't get to blog about this pretty lil' thing. Awww, I've always like bracelet and also especially bracelet like this that has a heart shape charm in the middle. I always love it this way and it's so simple like that. Been wearing it so often that I think maybe I should stop wearing it frequently already, for I scare I've been scratching it like mad. Lovin it loads, something so precious. ♥

Page 358 still: Musical Show

Got to watch the musical show that I have been wanting to watch so long ago. Like a month ago, I was telling the friends how much I wanted to watch this musical, but having finals and started interning, there's not much time left. Aww, today I had a lil' surprise having the opportunity to watch it before it ending soon on the 31st Dec I guess. Lovin surprises! It excites you the moment you got it and you realize how much people actually listened to you and know so well what you want. Best feeling ever. 

Surprisingly there's so many people for yesterday night's show since it has been repeating every night for almost a month already. The first part of the musical was pretty lengthy, and the second part I thought it was too cut short. But it's always nice watching musical shows for I love their voice so much, sounds so disney-alike and also the atmosphere where people screaming and clapping their hands and also feeling all excited about the musical. Positive vibes all around. 

Having to start working, I realize how precious is weekends. There ain't time at all for us during weekdays, I guess not much conversation also for after work our energy are so drain out already and having to sleep early since we need to wake up early to work. Sigh, such is working life. Friday is the best day where I could finally understand tgif. And having to spent the whole Saturday with the best companion ever was the best feeling ever. Awww love the moments most. 

It's 238am, and I am so reluctant to sleep. It's Saturday night that I usually sleep very much later enjoying the time alone. The air-cond, my comfy bed, music and laptop. Awesomest. and Sunday night? Double triple meh! Ahhh Monday. It's really blue nowadays. 

Till then. Imma continue scrolling. :D 

Page 358: Ze bff's 21st

Ohaii, haven't been updating the blog for some time already. Been busy with finals and then I've this very short holidays which last for only 5 days and here I am interning at this company already. Sigh, I wish I could rewind the time. I don't want everything to be over this fast, I dislike reality most of the times. And reality usually hurts most. :/ 

Btw, we kinda had this surprise birthday dinner for Grace. When her bf convinced her that two of them gonna have birthday dinner only, we were all there giving her the birthday surprise and became the largest group of light bulbs ever. I guess we were the brightest light bulbs ever, I hope we shone two of you brightly. Heh!!! :) So, I chose the venue to be at Journal by Plan B @Publika since the birthday girl said she wants some western food on her birthday and all of us haven't been there yet. Guess what, actually I wanted to go there very badly. Ha-ha! The day started pretty early for the rest of us for we went shopping for her pressie on that day itself, and Elaine went to get the pretty helium balloons and diy the words on the balloons. She's just so talented in this diy thingy. We had a pretty awesome birthday dinner, just few of us, the balloons and the food :) 

Oh well, ze bff for 4th year now. She's the one I rely onto a lot. The unhappy and happy stuff, I would surely share it with her. I think I took her for granted sometimes, but she never grumbled about it. Like how I am so lazy to reply to her text sometimes. Mwahaha and she knows me well. We are so similar in many ways that the way we think are usually align. lol. Not to mention we have this love-hate-relationship. Ahaha, usually this hate thingy is just a fake one thou. Awww love her to bits. I don't know how am I gonna survive without her, she gave me so much encouragement whenever I am upset, she gave me advice whenever I am lost. Love you loads bff! and our friendship shall stay strong. To many more years ahead babe! <3 

The Starting of December

It's the time of the semester again. Le sigh. :/

I need more good lucks wishes.

Till then. x